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SchoolgirlAuthor: Dazai Osamu
| Original Title | 女生徒 |
|---|---|
| Author | 太宰 治 |
| Genre | Modern Short Fiction |
| Author Type | Male Author |
| Summary | In the quiet hours of dawn, a young girl awakens to a world heavy with contradictions. Mornings bring a hollow ache, a gray sameness where regrets coil like shadows. She scrutinizes her reflection, loathing the glasses that obscure her face yet cherishing the blurred beauty they grant distant views. Her days unfold in a dance of self-loathing and fleeting hope—caressing a delicate wrapping cloth, envying a dog’s simplicity, crafting whimsical "Rococo" meals to mask emptiness. Beneath lies a yearning to transcend her perceived flaws: the performative kindness, the stolen phrases from books, the fear of becoming a "monstrous fraud." Moments of clarity pierce the haze—a sky so divine it stirs faith, lilies whose purity eclipses Solomon’s splendor—yet they slip like water through fingers. Between strained smiles for tedious guests and silent battles with instinct’s pull, she grasps for authenticity in a life that feels borrowed. Each evening, she resolves to cherish her weary mother, only to fray again by dawn. Aching to live "beautifully," she navigates the tightrope of adolescence—where every step risks exposure, yet the fall might finally set her free. |
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