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A Clear Autumn DayAuthor: Makino Shinichi

Original Title秋晴れの日
Author牧野 信一
GenreModern Short Fiction
Author TypeMale Author
SummaryA man’s mornings begin with violent retching—a ritual born of alcohol’s grip, performed with grotesque theatrics that unsettle his family. His four-year-old son mimics the convulsions, while his wife oscillates between pity and contempt, her patience frayed by years of hollow promises to quit. Haunted by inadequacies—a lifelong inability to swim, a timid aversion to travel—he masks shame with sarcasm, deflecting concern with claims of needing “intense exercise.” Summer’s heat amplifies his unraveling: neighbors gawk at his barbaric gargling, friends mock his fragility, and even attempts at domestic order crumble. Autumn arrives, but sobriety remains elusive. His self-loathing festers into cruelty, lashing out at those closest to him. Yet glimmers of longing persist—for mountain solitude, athletic redemption, a self untainted by weakness. As relationships strain under the weight of his denial, the question lingers: Is this a man spiraling toward ruin or grasping, however clumsily, for redemption? The answer lies in the quiet spaces between his agonized cries and the brittle hope flickering beneath them.